Discovering My Authentic Teaching Self

As a current graduate student and undergraduate teacher, I find myself oscillating between the two poles of student and teacher. I find myself constantly wondering how to approach the classroom and what I consider to be the most valuable aspects of teaching. I often ask myself what worked in my classes and how can I attempt to adapt the classes I have taken to the courses I now teach. I wonder what is the most significant aspect of teaching. Do I emphasize critical reading skills, writing, discussion, or, something else entirely? As a teacher, am I simply a conduit of the ‘correct’ information, or am I also modeling a type of inquiry and orientation to the world I want students to consider for themselves?

While these questions are largely unresolvable and will take a lifetime to ‘answer’, there are a few points worth noting. I am now in my third semester of teaching, so I have had some experience to figure out how to present myself and how to connect with students. I also no longer have to concern myself entirely with the teaching prep, but can focus on creating new classroom activities to facilitate engagement and critical discussion. In terms of presentation, I feel I have managed to present an ‘authentic’ self by way of emphasizing the importance of class discussion.

One of the most difficult aspects of teaching I have found is creating a critical discussion between students based on the course texts. Common obstacles include: students not completing the reading, students feeling uneasy participating in large groups, students feeling that, despite having done the reading, they do not have the ‘right’ answer, as well as, sometimes, a few students dominating discussion. I have found a few things that largely work, such as: 1) keepings readings to about fifty pages or less a session, 2) providing reading strategies that help students to pick out crucial arguments, and 3) finally, prior to really beginning the discussion, having students discuss with each other in small groups of about 3-4. I have found that these small groups, assuming the students have done the reading, allow them to confirm and validate with each other common insights as well as questions that can then be discussed as a full group. In addition to this, this semester I created a new option so that students who do not feel comfortable ‘participating’ in the form of speaking in front of the class, can write me an email if they have specific thoughts pertaining to that day’s class session. Finally, I always encourage students to reach out at least once a semester for office hours. I have received feedback that these varied tactics allow for a more personalized approach that fits for each student.

One thing that students seem to like is that halfway through the semester I do a ‘write-in’ in which I ask the students a series of questions concerning the class, but essentially I ask them to articulate how they think the class is going. In other words, they write what they see as working and not working with the course. Common themes emerge and we discuss those themes the following class and discuss if the class format needs to change. While I do not compromise my basic teaching values, it has been the case every time that students report this practice is productive and gives them a sense that the course really is for them and that the course is designed to engage them and promote their curiosity.

This is not to say I have ‘everything figured out’. Far from it. One of the things I find myself returning to now is balancing the practice of critical reading alongside tying in issues to students’ own experiences and current events. Much of the material we cover is theoretically dense and the perspectives assigned are often completely new to students. This often leads to a common reaction that the readings are difficult since many of the theoretical concepts are unfamiliar and require precision. This necessitates that much of the class is concerned with practices of close-reading of the assigned text that is accomplished through class discussion. It is my pedagogical commitment that these practices of close reading are essential in class and are lifelong skills. However, I think one of the difficulties this practice raises is how to encourage students to make connections to their own life or to the world more broadly. In other words, there is a challenge to cover in the same class: 1) a close-reading of a theoretically dense text, 2) have the students discuss the arguments of the text with each other and evaluate the validity of the argument and its political implications, 3) connect the themes of the text to their everyday lived experience and the world more broadly. It is this third point that requires the students to really integrate the material in such a way that they are putting themselves into the text and allowing themselves to potentially see the world differently. This is easier said than done. This can be extremely difficult as well when the class size is forty students, which strains possibilities for close discussion. Especially over Zoom where I worry many students struggle to keep engaged (I know this is the case for me when I am in the position of a student on Zoom).

This last point resonates I think with assessments and papers. For the most part, my courses are heavily weighted toward analytical essays or research papers. I have had to wrestle with how to assess students, particularly when the essays encourage creative argumentation and outside research. Sarah Deel in “Finding My Teaching Voice” discusses this issue as well when she writes, “Different students are going to express their answers to these types of questions in a very personal manner, and assessing them equally by a common rubric is very difficult.” I really appreciate her discussion on this issue, as I often initially found myself reverting to grading on the formatting and technical aspects of writing. However, I have since grown more confident in my abilities and focus now on providing critical feedback and assessing the student’s arguments and their ability to maintain a logical structure throughout. I have found that many students are first and foremost concerned with achieving the A letter grade rather than creating work they are proud of and which they think represents themselves. I do not in any way blame them for this. However, it often feels like the looming letter grade actually results in poorer work, as students are mostly focused on achieving the desired grade, rather than learning proper techniques for writing and research. Ironically, I suspect if they no longer worried about the grade and were concerned with the assignment, they would do better work and receive a better grade. Thus, one thing I am continuing to negotiate in class is how to maintain a grading system while managing to encourage that students take joy in the work of writing and research and do not feel constrained or pressured by the grade.

I am curious to hear what other specific tactics teachers use to produce critical conversations in the classroom.

4 Replies to “Discovering My Authentic Teaching Self”

  1. Your discussion of theoretically dense reading assignments was particularly interesting to me, as I have had such assignments in both undergrad and graduate school, and they are always tricky to find the motivation for especially when there are many assignments from other classes as well. However, I really like your method of allowing students time to discuss the readings prior to having an overall class discussion. I think as a student this would help me to organize my thoughts, and potentially decrease pressure if there was something I was unable to understand, as discussion between students can help to clarify such points.

  2. Extremely useful discussion Sam ! It is a bit harder to bring the students into what we intent in the classroom, which seems to be natural a dilemma, especially considering the material we teach and so on. As I am beginning to teach from next semester, the sheer diversity among the students in their intellectual as well as career interests are not only beautiful, but also quite challenging to me, I assume.

  3. Thank you Sam for sharing your thoughts and insights about your teaching methods and struggles that you have coped with. in terms of the reading assignments I resonate with some of what you have shared as a teacher myself and a student. I have always struggled with reading as English is not my first language required me some time to re-read the articles twice. But what I have found helpful for better readings is having specific questions from the instructor on the readings trying to find answers or discussion prior to the class, which brought confidence that at least I know what is coming or what to focus on. in addition, I admire the questions you have asked yourself at the beginning of this blog questioning how can you be a better teacher, those, in my opinion, guidelines to you and others to see the effort and time you have given for this issue. and lastly, I encourage you to transform this blog into how can you find your teaching self steps, as it gave me really good ideas of how to incorporate some of what you have suggested into my future teaching tasks.

    1. Hi Sam, you shared a lot of methods and insights in this post. One of the things that stuck with me was how at the end when you expressed curiosity for what others are doing to stimulate critical conversations. One thing that I have seen, which worked really well in this virtual space was done in a TLOS course I participated in this summer.

      The instructor set us up with a few short readings, and response prompts. They would give us 4-6 questions or scenarios for us to reflect on each week. In the class discussion board, students would respond to each prompt, and this would create a conversation because part of the assignment was to answer 1 prompt, and provide at least two comments to colleagues in the course. (Folks often went way beyond with the comments…) Anyway, all of this had a due date for the night before class was to happen, and then we’d all meet for a virtual discussion. Because we had responded on the discussion board, our teacher could facilitate conversation and ask questions about what we were thinking, etc. It really worked well.

      Kawthar, I think this is similar to what you wrote about preparing questions for students to think about going into the readings. I agree that it helps–even for me! I can’t think of a reason why framing the issue in advance wouldn’t be desirable, but perhaps there are situations where you don’t want to influence your student’s opinions or reactions in advance. Something to think about. Another thought is that this practice might make the content universally more accessible, too.

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